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Ego and Forgiveness

Your ego is the source of your pride and shame. All the shitty things you do that you regret later on is the fault of the ego. Your ego came into being because you encountered the pride and shame of others and internalized this energy under the misconception that internalizing these qualities would protect you and help you survive in a dangerous world. The world is dangerous because it is filled with people governed by the whims of their egos. So you adopted an ego too. With an ego you would fit in with everyone else. With an ego you could protect yourself by lashing out when threatened and always being on guard for threats that might materialize. Other people would encounter the energy of your ego and develop egos of their own. And so the over all system self-propagated like a virus infecting bodies and spreading to other bodies.

In a sense your ego is a blessing because you do not need to feel responsible for those crimes you committed while your ego drove the ship of self. It is your ego that is to blame and your ego is not yourself. It is something other than your true self. Therefore you may forgive yourself for these things you feel shitty about. More accurately, there is nothing to forgive. You had falsely accused yourself of these crimes your ego really committed. Your ego set you up.

But isn’t this argument just a convenient way to get yourself off the hook and avoid taking responsibility for your own actions? Recognize it is your ego who is asking this question. Your ego does not want you to recognize that your ego is not really part of your true self. When you do not recognize this separation your ego can take control and steer the ship. When you do not recognize this you take the blame for your ego’s actions and your ego gets off scott free. In a sense, your ego hides itself within yourself by convincing you it is yourself.

But what about the victims of the crimes committed by your ego? Are they to take comfort in the fact that it was not your true self who wronged them but rather it is your ego who is the true culprit? Of course not. You may differentiate between your ego and your true self but other people do not do this. To them you will always be the sum of all your actions. It is your responsibility to separate yourself from your ego. In that sense you are responsible for your ego’s actions. But you cannot separate yourself from your ego without first realizing your ego is in fact separate. You cannot be blamed for not knowing what you do not know.

Even the concept of blame and the concept that there must be someone who should be blamed is an ego invented concept. Your ego wants to blame others to shift the blame from itself. And so it blames others. And so it blames you and you feel shitty for the things you have done.

You may forgive yourself. It is not your fault.

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Blog Post Arrogance

My white Supremacist acquaintance once castigated me as a liberal (he assumes I am a liberal) who would not let him live his life as he sees fit. I am paraphrasing here. I pointed out that he was the one stalking me by commenting incessantly on every post I made and I that I had no desire to infringe upon his choice of living. I picture him living on a compound in Idaho somewhere hunkering down with survivalist food rations and ammunition. He might very well be living on the upper east side of Manhattan for all I know but to a certain extent I have to take him at his word and draw assumptions from there. At any rate he responded to my comment by saying that I am not writing alone in my salon (again paraphrasing). When I blog I am in effect broadcasting my thoughts to the world. I suppose this is true even though not many people read my blog and they have the option of not choosing to read my blog or even not following my instructions (not that I give any really).

But I can guess that his point has more to do with his assumption that Western Civilization is in the process of collapsing because of the liberal mindset of tolerance and freedom has sapped us of our will to conquer. And if we are not expanding as a civilization we must be collapsing. If I am being honest, I cannot argue with that point. The white population of North America and Europe is in decline. We are not replacing ourselves sufficiently. At the same time the Mexicans, Arabs, Chinese, Indians and Sub-Saharan Africans are reproducing in greater numbers world-wide. On the other hand I am not sure population dynamics are a function of racial initiative so much as a function of economics and when it becomes more expensive to raise a child because of education, health care etc. people tend to have less of them. The White Race is a victim of its own success I suppose. But that means the next “dominant” race will suffer the same consequence. It happened to the Romans.

Of course this perspective assumes that race is the important factor. I don’t necessarily look at it that way which is essentially the accusation my white Supremacist acquaintance would make (I assume). And it is this attitude which is the reason why the white race is in decline. I suppose he would also say we have made a virtue of not caring about race and we can luxuriate in that view until our door get kicked down one day and then we will wish we held different views that motivated us to make different choices. So I guess in my own small way my (supposedly) liberal perspective that I am broadcasting to the world through this blog is contributing to the downfall of Western Civilization as seen from my white Supremacist acquaintance.

I have been thinking about interviewing him to get a better idea as to his philosophy because it seems well thought out (in the sense that he seems to have thought about it a great deal). I am sure it would be interesting.

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