I say “I wish I was dead” involuntarily to myself many times a day. I say it when I think of something embarrassing I have done in the past. Often when I utter this phrase I feel guilty like I should not have said that or by saying that I have committed some offense. I am sure it is the same force that makes me say this phrase that also makes me feel wrong for saying it. It is shame.
Fuck you shame! Leave me alone.