I voted for George W. Bush in 2000 because I was turned off by the Clinton administration after the Monica Lewinski Scandal. I became politically conservative after graduating college in 1993. At the time I felt very ashamed because I was unable to find the type of job I thought I should have as a college graduate. I finally settled for a job driving a truck. Because of my shame, I was easily indoctrinated by Rush Limbaugh who I listened to every day on the road. What he said made sense to me. This country is in decline and it is the fault of the over sensitive, politically correct, socialist liberals. Now I can see how shame-based people are naturally attracted to this type of conservative philosophy. Shame-based people feel ashamed about their situation. Because shame feels bad it must be dealt with in some way. Most shame-based people choose to deal with shame by shaming other people.
This is why the conservatives are so venomous in the way they criticize so-called liberals. It has nothing to do with the love of freedom although they cloak it in that language. This, by the way, is another marker of a shame-based person; the need to hide their real motives. Shame-based people do this because they think if their real motives were viewed by the world they would be judged harshly for them.
On September 11th 2001 I remember waiting for the bus I took to work and hearing someone say that a plane had hit the world trade center. I did not think it was anything serious. When I got to work on the 54th floor of the Bell Atlantic Tower a lot of people were watching a TV set up in the conference room. I saw the smoke pouring out of one of the towers. I remember sitting in my cubicle listening to the Howard Stern Show describe the events unfolding from Manhattan. By midday people in my office started going home.
I remember the days after 9/11 I felt nervous for George W. Bush when he gave speeches. It never seemed like he was fully in command of the language. I felt nervous that he would make a mistake and say the wrong thing. At the same time I rooted for him. He was the president I voted for and I identified with him. He had a successful father who’s name he share and in who’s shadow he stood all his life. He did not seem as smart, capable or confident as his father but here he was finally put in the spotlight and given an opportunity to prove himself and I wanted him to succeed. I wanted him to succeed because in him I saw myself. I had not yet been put in the spotlight but someday I might find myself there.