Inside me there is both darkness and light. It is the darkness that gets joy out of fucking with people on message boards and it is the light that has compassion for my children (for example). After I fuck with people on message boards I feel bad. It might be tempting to say it is the light that is making me feel bad for doing wrong. That is morality. But really this is my darkness now turned on me. My darkness loves to fuck with people even if (or even especially when) that person is me. Fucking with someone in this context means deriving pleasure by making another person feel bad.
The darkness is cowardly, dishonest and hides itself because it feels ashamed at its core. It makes sense that darkness thrives on the anonymity of the internet. To alleviate the pain of shame it acts out on other people, deriving pleasure by making them feel bad. The darkness pretends to be the light by espousing morality and punishing immorality but what it is really doing is shaming other people and deriving pleasure from it.
By contrast, the light has compassion, forgiveness and acts wholeheartedly. Several Bible verses come to mind. In Genesis the first thing God says is, “let there be light.” (Gen 1:3). Then God separated the light from the darkness. (Gen 1:4). In John, Jesus said, “I am the Light of the world; he who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.” (John 8:12). Paul speaks of love but I suspect love in this context is the same thing as light. “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” (1 Cor. 13:4-7).
It might be tempting to say that labling the good part light and the bad part dark is a way of avoiding blame. It is a way of saying that I am not responsible for my bad actions but rather the fault belongs with the darkness. I think this is a message from the darkness which tries to shame and cast blame. I think recognizing and accepting the darkness inside me is recognizing the truth and thus embracing the light. When I recognize the darkness and how it acts inside me I am better able to stop myself before I act out and act from a place of honesty and light rather than shame and darkness.
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